drowning.terkapai2
tolong tepuk bahu aku
bila aku mula lalai dan lari nari nawaitu yang asal

:'(

warning: sila baca dlm satu nafas. sebrang masalah tidak akan ditanggung.ohyea,in kelate pls.

APA NAK JADI DENGAN MU NI MIRAH ? BASO AKU MALAH DOH NOK CARO. MALAH SUPO TAIK AYE. KATO NOK JADI GINI LA, GITU LA. PAH MALAH STUDY. PAH BILO TEST TAK LEH JAWAB PADAHAL SOALEY SENEY SUPO KUCING. LEPAS TU MULA MENYESAL. LEPAS TU DAH JANJI TAK NAK ULANG TABIAT TU. KATA NAK SIAPKN ASSIGNMENT. KATA NAK BREAK 5MIN JE SAMBIL TNGGU BATERI LAPTOP FULL MULA. PAH G MAKE MEGGI. PAH G GEGEY NGE SAEM2. PAH NATEY GPO HAU

nyekit sungguh

baso doh nok guno bahaso molep. maroh ni ! :P

wordless friday-

my heart sighing. i felt burdened whenever people put such a fucking high expectation to me. and i felt pressured. i will never understood how can some people characterize someone based on gpa/cgpa. or her/his rankings on school/university/company.

some people, are blessed with certain specialty such as, high self-esteem, capabilities to speak other language fluently, able to stand up in the middle etc. but not for me, i started from down. i'm not intelligent enough. when i was in primary school. i'm not someone that everyone wanted to be friend with. i'm such a freak and a stupid kind of one.

but slowly, i grow up. learn to appreciate the value of knowledge. i started to learn how knowledge could help to reforming myself becoming a better person. and because of that, i study. because of niat kerana Allah, to become a better muslimah and a better daughter.

and it pissed me off at extreme level. whenever people was like 'tak pe la,kau dah bijak.tak payah study' etc. i don't know, i was offended with that kind of words. but i keep it to myself. i'm not gifted with ability to memorize every single shit i read or learn, i'm not really good with numbers, i don't have such a wide knowledge. no, i didnt have all of that. the only thing i have, is my trust for Allah. i believed in Allah words, that those who work hard for something they want will be rewarded. and my love for knowledge.

so please, for a second. stop. stop judging people by its ranking. ranking doesn't determine who they are. and you don't have to point it out directly. if u feel i am stupid and 'alah,ko nasib baik je' then keep it for your fucking self. cuz,i already noted it.

and your shits, won't become obstacle to me. if something that going to hold me down. it will because Allah wanted me to stop. because He knows me better in and out. so until then, i am going to learn and keep learning, for God. for Islam. for Ummi and Abah.

not to impress anybody. so, stop please.

wordless monday-

balik selayang

secara fizikalnya, disini tidak banyak yang berubah

cuma sedikit membangun

tapi secara mentalnya, jiwa disini sudah berubah

ramai yang sudah pergi

aneh

ps: cuti seminggu, assignments berlambak. *campak buku and sipping water like a boss*

setiap hari,setiap minggu. bercumbu dengan aktivit yang sama.

ada banyak cerita. tp tak terluah di sini, biarlah sekadar di-draft-kan dan disampaikan kepada yang Maha Esa lagi Maha Mengetahui.

semester dua sangat mencabar.

aku selalu rasa people putting high expectation terhadap.walhal semua itu hanya syok sendiri. apalah aku ini berbanding dengan mereka yang jauh lebih baik. lebih bijak.

bukan humble.tapi kebenaran.

masih ada banyak lagi ilmu Allah yang hendak kucari,dan hendak ku kejar.

berniatlah, belajar kerana Allah.

dan mudah-mudahan di jauhkan dari sifat hasad dengki

kerana sesungguhnya, dengki itu sifat syaitan.

yang menyesatkan kita. dari landasan yang benar

dan bersabarlah

kerana orang yang paling kuat ialah mereka yang mampu menahan perasaan marah

ya Allah

jadikanlah aku org yang cool dan cintakan Mu lebih dari segalanya.amin.