i wish nothing but the best for you too

i was reading this novels. and the author, Jodi Picoult's which obviously was well known among bookworms i bet and the story is all about how a mother's handling and raising her 2 sons as a single mother's. so one of her sons's is diagnosed with Aspergers and here's the point why i wrote this post.

first

i could never imagine, one day. in future. one of my child are diagnosed with Aspergers.

second

and could never imagine, how i'm gonna react with this kind of situation.

third

will, the guy who i married. the guy who is father to that child willingly to stay with me and accept everything with open heart because apparently Emma Hunt's (the character in the novel that i read right now) her husbands not there for her.

forth

and most at all. i could never imagine how my future's gonna looks alike or to be precisely how my spm result gonna be

so obviously. this's started getting ridiculous. overthinking somehow lead to destruction -_-

since this post is kinda mengtensionkan. i'm gonna leave something as a punch line for today post.

nothing is better than this (unless you're beliebers)

credit: tumblr (obviously)

ps: btw, novel that i'm reading right now is HOUSE RULES by Jodi Picoult.totally recommended

honestly, this is one of the most wisest words i ever heard read. so, right now. i'm just gonna keep myself busy with my fangirl status. besides, bigbang making their comeback now. tugas seorang perempuan sejati adalah berada di sisi suaminya ketika susah dan senang.

mom's and dad's should be thankful to taeyang,GD,Top,daesung and seungri. they're the reason why i dont need boyfriends. based kat twitter, majority vip's are agreed with this statement. and parent's should be thankful to the one who create tumblr. because, tumblr keep me busy and makes me forget how lonely this world is.

it's ironic

when you making fun of love quotes and love song

and you're laughing at some shit theory

like when someone appear in your dream

it's because they miss you

and you laugh

that was just invalid you know that

and you getting sick of watching love story

but of course, korean drama is an exceptional

because you enjoy the sad story line

you wanna cry, you afraid of becoming a heartless person

and most at all

when now you started to believe all that

the love note, love quotes, love story

once upon a time, when you read a statement

how you wish that person will never fall in love with someone else

when you are wishing, no one is waiting for that person

you called that person as a selfish person

and now, you are wishing the same damn thing

like I said, it's ironic

and you wish this is just for temporary.

dog days are over

anna sui f/w'11 nyfw

I dont think i can describe my love for her collection this time. it was more than words. i love the ENTIRE collection here. the cats hat, the prints, the colors and everything. i cant get enough. enough, Anna you win fashion week this time

credit:NylonMagazineTv YT, Tumblr

19th february 2011

please don't be in love with someone else

please dont have somebody waiting for you

i'll spend forever wondering if you knew

i was enchanted to meet you

dont be a drag,just be a queen

I dont know whether you realized or not, my blog layout is keep fucking changing all fucking time. NO! i'm not boring. its just,ok dammit fine. i'm kinda sorta bored somehow (well when my tumblr dashboard dead, seriously when that happen its pretty creepy ok) and somehow, i found myself floating in the air, i lost. and facebook status are fulled of people keep talking about spm results that rumored going to come this month. God bless me. i dont know how to react, it's all mixed. all i want now is, pizza and new novels. and tadaa,guess what. i still havent done anything beneficial such as start taking driving class, part time fucking job, improve my language or asdfgsdfghjsdfg

so far, i managed to gain some weight and lose it later on ,i can cook a bit, i have this cropped military jacket, and i sleep a lot.ok bye

salam maulidur rasul

dalam tiga tahun ni, acapkali.bila menjelang je bulan mulia dalam kalendar Islam. mesti, Tuhan akan uji aku. dan ujian itu tidak lain tidak bukanlah, PMS atau bahasa melayu, haid. sekaligus, menghalang aku untuk melakukan ibadat2 yang disunatkan bila tiba bulan2 mulia ni atau menjejakkan kaki ke masjid untuk mendengarceramah ilmu dan memenuhkan setiap lubang2 kosong dalam jiwa aku, dimana majority-nya dipenuhi dengan dakwat2 hitam

agaknya sebab aku masih belum bersedia. daripada melakukan dosa sambil beribadat. Tuhan gantikan dengan ujian macam ni, supaya kelak. bila tiba peluangnya, aku boleh beribadat dalam keadaan suci dan penuh keikhlasan. bukan agak, tapi macam itulah sebenarnya.

btw,salam maulidur rasul untuk semua umat Islam. sempena mengimbau kembali detik2 bersejarah 12rabiulawal tahun gajah bersamaan 20April571

menangislah kerana rindukan Rasulullah. kerana sebaik2 air mata yang menitis antaranya adalah air mata yang bercucuran kerana mengingati kekasih Allah swt

lee alexander mcQueen (1969-2010)

11feb, 1 year ago, he left the world by killing himself.leaving a note, saying how cruel this world. and he dont realized, his action leave such a deep scar for his fans. but,until this moment people still memorize him. still thinking of him. and most at all. when he died, the fashion industry went blackout and no longer shining. and that person who responsible for all that is, lee alexander McQueen,in memory forever and ever,xx

aux jeunes de vivre, de mourir rapidement. tu me manques,xx

secret garden

i just feel like wanna post this because I cried so hard when I watched this drama especially this part when, Joo Won decided to exchange his body with Ra Im in order to save her and he left a letter to Ra Im. simple, this is the most heartbreaking moment. gosh,the moment when Joo Won wrote this letter and when Ra Im found out this letter. i think my heart slowly torn and break into pieces .__.

I’m letting you know beforehand but you are the first and last “alienated neighbor” to ever get a letter from society’s leader, Kim Joo Won. So be proud of yourself.

It is an afternoon when the wind shakes the branches of the trees. I hope that when you read this letter, it is the same kind of afternoon. I hope that you are able to see what I saw. If you stand by the window where I stood, sleep on the bed where I slept, and read the books that I read, with that, let’s say that we are together. Let’s say that we are happy like other lovers.

Finally now I think that perhaps the magical spell we are under is a gift from the heavens. So laugh like a person who received an unexpected gift; if you laugh with your heart, I’ll hear that laughter. Because I am a more able person than you think. So shave my face nicely, and dress in the clothes that I like. With that, let’s say that we are together. Let’s say that we are happy like other lovers.

-kim joo won (secret garden), a letter to Gil Ra Im

paderi dan kunci syurga

i found something that truly interesting. this is such a lovely story.and a must must must be read by all muslim. credit goes to just-her.tumblr.com (a very lovely muslimah,i fall in LOVE with every single thing she posts,follow her if you own a tumblr acc)

Paderi & Kunci Syurga.

Ada seorang pemuda Arab yang baru sahaja menyelesaikan pengajiannya di Amerika. Pemuda ini adalah salah seorang yang diberi nikmat oleh Allah berupa pendidikan agama Islam bahkan dia mampu mendalaminya. Selain belajar, dia juga seorang juru dakwah Islam. Ketika berada di Amerika, dia berkenalan dengan salah seorang Nasrani. Hubungan mereka semakin akrab, dengan harapan semoga Allah s.w.t. Memberinya hidayah masuk Islam.

Pada suatu hari mereka berdua berjalan-jalan di sebuah perkampungan di Amerika dan melintas dekat sebuah gereja yang terdapat di kampung tersebut. Temannya itu meminta agar dia turut masuk ke dalam gereja.Pada mula dia keberatan, namun kerana desakan akhirnya pemuda itu pun memenuhi permintaannya lalu dia ikut masuk ke dalam gereja dan duduk di salah satu bangku dengan hening, sebagaimana kebiasaan mereka.

Ketika paderi masuk, mereka serentak berdiri untuk memberikan penghormatan lantas kembali duduk. Di saat itu, si paderi agak terbeliak ketika melihat para hadirin dan berkata, “Di kalangan kita Ada seorang Muslim. Aku harap dia keluar dari sini.”

Pemuda Arab itu tidak bergerak dari tempatnya. Paderi tersebut mengucapkan perkataan itu berkali-kali, namun dia tetap tidak bergerak dari tempatnya. Hingga akhirnya paderi itu berkata, “Aku minta dia keluar dari sini dan aku menjamin keselamatannya. ” Barulah pemuda ini beranjak keluar.

Di ambang pintu, pemuda bertanya kepada sang paderi, “Bagaimana anda tahu bahwa saya seorang Muslim?”

Paderi itu menjawab, “Dari tanda yang terdapat di wajahmu.”

Kemudian dia beranjak hendak keluar. Namun, paderi itu ingin memanfaatkan keberadaan pemuda dengan mengajukan beberapa pertanyaan, tujuannya adalah untuk memalukan pemuda tersebut dan sekaligus mengukuhkan agamanya. Pemuda Muslim itupun menerima tentangan debat tersebut.

Paderi berkata, “Aku akan mengajukan kepada anda 22 pertanyaan Dan anda harus menjawabnya dengan tepat. “

Si pemuda tersenyum Dan berkata, “Silakan!”

Sang paderi pun mulai bertanya, “Sebutkan satu yang tiada duanya, dua yang tiada tiganya, tiga yang tiada empatnya, empat yang tiada limanya, lima yang tiada enamnya, enam yang tiada tujuhnya, tujuh yang tiada delapannya, delapan yang tiada sembilannya, sembilan yang tiada sepuluhnya, sesuatu yang tidak lebih dari sepuluh, sebelas yang tiada dua belasnya, dua belas yang tiada tiga belasnya, tiga belas yang tiada empat belasnya.”

“Sebutkan sesuatu yang dapat bernafas namun tidak mempunyai ruh! Apa yang dimaksud dengan kuburan berjalan membawa isinya? Siapakah yang berdusta namun masuk ke dalam syurga? Sebutkan sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah namun Dia tidak menyukainya? Sebutkan sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah dengan tanpa ayah Dan ibu!”

“Siapakah yang tercipta dari api, siapakah yang diazab dengan api Dan siapakah yang terpelihara dari api? Siapakah yang tercipta dari batu, siapakah yang diazab dengan batu Dan siapakah yang terpelihara dari batu?”

“Sebutkan sesuatu yang diciptakanAllah Dan dianggap besar! Pohon apakah yang mempunyai 12 ranting, setiap ranting mempunyai 30 daun, setiap daun mempunyai 5 buah, 3 di bawah naungan Dan dua di bawah sinaran matahari?”

Mendengar pertanyaan tersebut, pemuda itu tersenyum dengan keyakinan kepada Allah.

Setelah membaca Bismillah dia berkata,

-Satu yang tiada duanya ialah Allah s.w.t..

-Dua yang tiada tiganya ialah Malam dan Siang. Allah s.w.t. Berfirman, “Dan Kami jadikan malam Dan siang sebagai dua tanda (kebesaran kami).”

|Al-Isra’: 12|

-Tiga yang tiada empatnya adalah kesilapan yang dilakukan Nabi Musa ketika Khidir menenggelamkan sampan, membunuh seorang anak kecil Dan ketika menegakkan kembali dinding yang hampir roboh.

-Empat yang tiada limanya adalah Taurat, Injil, Zabur Dan al-Qur’an.

-Lima yang tiada enamnya ialah Solat lima waktu.

-Enam yang tiada tujuhnya ialah jumlah Hari ketika Allah s.w.t. Menciptakan makhluk.

-Tujuh yang tiada delapannya ialah Langit yang tujuh lapis. Allah s.w.t. Berfirman, “Yang telah menciptakan tujuh langit berlapis-lapis. Kamu sekali-kali tidak melihat |Al-Mulk: 3|

-Delapan yang tiada sembilannya ialah Malaikat pemikul Arsy AR-Rahman. Allah s.w.t. Berfirman, “Dan malaikat-malaikat berada di penjuru-penjuru langit. Dan pada Hari itu delapan orang malaikat men-junjung ‘Arsy Rabbmu di atas (kepala) mereka.”

|Al-Haqah: 17|

-Sembilan yang tiada sepuluhnya adalah mu’jizat yang diberikan kepada Nabi Musa yaitu: tongkat, tangan yang bercahaya, angin taufan, musim paceklik, katak, darah, kutu Dan belalang.*

-Sesuatu yang tidak lebih dari sepuluh ialah Kebaikan. Allah s.w.t. Berfirman, “Barang siapa yang berbuat kebaikan maka untuknya sepuluh kali lipat.”

|Al-An’am: 160|

-Sebelas yang tiada dua belasnya ialah jumlah Saudara-Saudara Nabi Yusuf .

-Dua belas yang tiada tiga belasnya ialah Mu’jizat Nabi Musa yang terdapat dalam firman Allah, “Dan (ingatlah) ketika Musa memohon air untuk kaumnya, lalu Kami berfirman, ‘Pukullah batu itu dengan tongkatmu.’ Lalu memancarlah daripadanya dua belas Mata air.”

|Al-Baqarah: 60|

-Tiga belas yang tiada empat belasnya ialah jumlah Saudara Nabi Yusuf ditambah dengan ayah Dan ibunya.

-Adapun sesuatu yang bernafas namun tidak mempunyai ruh adalah waktu Subuh. Allah s.w.t. ber-firman, “Dan waktu subuh apabila fajarnya mulai menyingsing. “

|At-Takwir: 18|

-Kuburan yang membawa isinya adalah Ikan yang menelan Nabi Yunus AS.

-Mereka yang berdusta namun masuk kedalam surga adalah saudara-saudara Nabi Yusuf , yakni ketika mereka berkata kepada ayahnya, “Wahai ayah kami, sesungguhnya kami pergi berlumba-lumba dan kami tinggalkan Yusuf di dekat barang-barangkami, lalu dia dimakan serigala. ” Setelah kedustaan terungkap,Yusuf berkata kepada mereka, “tak ada cercaan terhadap kamu semua.” Dan ayah mereka Ya’qub berkata, “Aku akan memohonkan ampun bagi muka pada Rabbku. Sesungguhnya Dia-lah Yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.”

|Yusuf:98|

-Sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah namun tidak Dia sukai adalah suara Keldai. Allah s.w.t. berfirman, “Sesungguhnya sejelek-jelek suara adalah suara keldai.”

|Luqman: 19|

-Makhluk yang diciptakan Allah tanpa bapa dan ibu adalah Nabi Adam, Malaikat, Unta Nabi Shalih dan Kambing Nabi Ibrahim.

-Makhluk yang diciptakan dari api adalah Iblis, yang diazab dengan api ialah Abu Jahal dan yang terpelihara dari api adalah Nabi Ibrahim. Allah s.w.t. berfirman, “Wahai api dinginlah dan selamatkan Ibrahim.”

|Al-Anbiya’: 69|

-Makhluk yang terbuat dari batu adalah Unta Nabi Shalih, yang diazab dengan batu adalah tentara bergajah dan yang terpelihara dari batu adalah Ashabul Kahfi (penghuni gua).

-Sesuatu yang diciptakan Allah dan dianggap perkara besar adalah Tipu Daya wanita, sebagaimana firman Allah s.w.t.? “Sesungguhnya tipu daya kaum wanita itu sangatlah besar.”

|Yusuf: 28|

-Adapun pohon yang memiliki 12 ranting setiap ranting mempunyai 30 daun, setiap daun mempunyai 5 buah, 3 di bawah teduhan dan dua di bawah sinaran matahari maknanya: Pohon adalah Tahun, Ranting adalah Bulan, Daun adalah Hari dan Buahnya adalah Solat yang lima waktu, Tiga dikerjakan di malam hari dan Dua di siang hari.

Paderi dan para hadirin merasa takjub mendengar jawapan pemuda Muslim tersebut. Kemudian dia pun mula hendak pergi. Namun dia mengurungkan niatnya dan meminta kepada paderi agar menjawab satu pertanyaan saja. Permintaan ini disetujui oleh paderi.

Pemuda ini berkata, “Apakah kunci syurga itu?”

mendengar pertanyaan itu lidah paderi menjadi kelu, hatinya diselimuti keraguan dan rupa wajahnya pun berubah. Dia berusaha menyembunyikan kebimbangannya, namun tidak berhasil. Orang-orang yang hadir di gereja itu terus mendesaknya agar menjawab pertanyaan tersebut, namun dia cuba mengelak.

Mereka berkata, “Anda telah melontarkan 22 pertanyaan kepadanya dan semuanya dia jawab, sementara dia hanya memberi cuma satu pertanyaan namun anda tidak mampu menjawabnya! “

Paderi tersebut berkata, “Sesungguh aku tahu jawapannya, namun aku takut kalian marah.”

Mereka menjawab, “Kami akan jamin keselamatan anda. “

Paderi pun berkata, “Jawapannya ialah: ASHHADU ALLA ILAHA ILLALLAH, WA ASHHADU ANNA MUHAMMADAR-RASULULLAH. “

Lantas paderi dan orang-orang yang hadir di gereja itu terus memeluk agama Islam. Sungguh Allah telah menganugerahkan kebaikan dan menjaga mereka dengan Islam melalui tangan seorang pemuda Muslim yang bertakwa.

DUA KUNCI SYURGA YANG SELALU UMAT ISLAM UCAPKAN DI DALAM SOLAT MEREKA.

Miftahul Jannah. Inilah dia rahsia yang diucapkan oleh Jesus Christ kepada Peter The Fisherman pada hari yang bertuah itu. Dua baris ayat yang dipadam dengan penuh dengki dan khianat para Yahudi Mason dan Illuminist-Christian yangg tidak dapat menerima kehadiran sorang Rasul penutup para Nabi dari kalangan orang-orang Arab. Junjungan besar kita, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

Sedikit rujukan ‘Miftahul Jannah’ dari sumber Islam:

Muaz bin Jabal Radiallahu Anhu meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam bersabda yang bermaksud:

“Anak-anak kunci syurga ialah mengakui kalimah La Ilaha Illallah

|Riwayat Al-Imam Ahmad|

Rasulullah bersabda :

“Barangsiapa yang pada akhir kalimatnya mengucapkan “La ilaaha illallah” maka ia dimasukkan kedalam surga”

|HR. Hakim|

Imam Bukhari rahimahullah meriwayatkan dalam Sahihnya, bahawa seorang pernah bertanya kepada Imam Wahab Ibn Munabbih: “ Bukankah Laa ilaaha illallah itu kunci syurga?”

Wahab menjawab: “ Benar, akan tetapi tidaklah bagi setiap kunci itu melainkan ia mempunyai gigi. Jika engkau membawa kunci yang bergigi, maka pintu syurga akan di bukakan untukmu, jika tidak maka pintu tak akan di bukakan untukmu”

‘Gigi’ yang dimaksudkan ialah bukan sekadar menyebut kalimah syahadah tetapi memahaminya serta melaksanakan apa yang dimaksudkan darinya.

Dari Jabir bin Abdullah, ia berkata: Aku mendengar Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam bersabda: Zikir yang paling mulia ialah La Ilaha Illallah dan doa yang paling baik ialah Alhamdulillah.

|Riwayat Al-Imam Ibnu Majah|

Dari Abu Hurairah Radiallahu-Anhu, ia berkata: Bersabda Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam: “Yang akan mencapai kebahagiaan dan keuntungan melalui syafaatku ialah orang yang mengucapkan kalimah La Ilaha Illallah dengan hati yang ikhlas”.

|Riwayat Al-Imam Al-Bukhari|

Dari Zaid bin Arqam Radiallahu-Anhu meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam bersabda yang maksudnya:

“Barangsiapa yang mengucapkan La Ilaha Illallah dengan ikhlas, dia akan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga.” Lalu ditanyakan kepada baginda: “Bagaimanakah yang dimaksudkan dengan ikhlas itu? Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam bersabda: “Ikhlas itu ialah yang mencegah dari melakukan perbuatan-perbuatan yang haram”.

|Riwayat Al-Imam At-Thabrani|

Dari Umar Radiallahu-Anhu meriwayatkan bahawa beliau mendengar Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam bersabda yang bermaksud:

“Aku mengetahui satu kalimah yang tidaklah seorang hamba pun yang mengucapkannya dan membenarkannya dengan hati kemudian ia mati dengannya melainkan haramlah ke atasnya neraka jahanam. Kalimah itu ialah “La Ilaha Illallah”.

|Riwayat Al-Imam Al-Hakim|

Dari Ibnu Abbas Radiallahu-Anhuma bahawa Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam bersabda yang bermaksud:

“Demi yang diriku ditangannya, jika sekiranya segala langit dan bumi dan siapa yang ada padanya dan apa-apa yang ada di antaranya dan apa-apa yang ada di bawahnya diletakkan disebelah dacing dan kalimah La Ilaha Illallah disebelah yang lain, maka dacing kalimah (La Ilaha Illallah) itulah yang lebih berat”.

|Riwayat Al-Imam At-Thabrani|

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10things that

annoyed me lately, and i freaking hate it

1. facebook (explained why i rarely online my facebook) and i dont have any solid reasons why. boring already perhaps?

2.stupid tag from people that i dont know (i know i'm not alone too,xoxo) :P

3.tumblr

because NOWADAYS people keep talking like 'oh my God,u know what.facebook is full of drama. I love tumblr more than facebook because u know what.here we got easily with each other, facebook is full of mirror pictures and peace sign pose and blah blah' here's what i think, u know.it's fucking why now i hates tumblr. because people like them. and u know what's another tumblr probs now? 'THE-ONE-WHO-SHALL-NOT-BE-NAMED-AND-A-WANNABE-TUMBLR-FAMOUS'

and excuse me with 'here we got easily with each other', by stealing someone artwork and change into 'oh-this-is-mine' ?? a long time ago, tumblr used to be like that.but now,no more.

and worst at all, the police grammar.

i'm just gonna shut this off. because,i dont think i deserved to explain this as my english are freaking bad. i'm just wanna say. before you judging someone, u like seriously need to go to the mirror and look at yourself and said 'why im so perfect,i should died'

but i still love tumblr. tumblr was my second-love-in-sight.cuttttttttttt

4.kpop

AHA! i just realized how scary some die-hard-fans can be (include me) one of thing i regret most in this world besides my stupid ex's and my old crush are knowing kpop.

1st:they drive you crazy.

2nd; i cant denied how addictive they are.

3rd; u-are-slowly-gonna-turn-haters. because, kpop industry. it's normal u see those idol group.some of them DO plastic surgery, they lips-sync, they wear shorpants, they do buttdance, they do kawaii pose, they act cute and so on. it's kinda turned off. BUT the fans, they're dieing for them.

i used to be part of those haters. but slowly,i realized. what's the point hating them. like they are gonna know. so here it's. if u hate them, just keep for yourself. stop judging them. stop listening to them. u can just said 'oh,their music is not my taste' not by making failed forum or website or whateva.

here are some comment i still remember until now from some haters

"i wish she are gonna get rape by that person"

"she's fugly bitch"

"why dont he go and killed himself"

"people like them should died"

I hate people who only listen to one type of music and criticise everyone else for listening to something else

-flawlessbitch.tumblr.com

maybe i should put this first not facebook ._.

5. secret garden drama

i couldnt accept that kind of story line. enough said ._.

but oh my God, since when hyun bin looks so handsome?

skip to nom 6

6.ageing

I know. I know. this is a super sensitive issues. but, what i'm trying to say is. wait,I should just change the tittle. ok forget about it, what i am trying to say here is, being 18, being an ex spm candidate that waiting for her result that soon gonna come out is seriously squeezing me to extreme level.

so, yesterday my mom keep telling me to fill the UPU form and decide what me gonna do in future because me results are gonna come out and me gonna died becos me are not fully miss Independence like in neyo song and me not ready to AGEING (NO,that's not what my mom said to me)

and soooooooooooooooo, as you know. i'm sort of useless human being as i enjoyed latte than sky juice, i love shopping than making money, i love sleeping than clean my bedroom everyday, i love eating than cooking.muahaha -__- ok,this is not funny. this's freaking scary! and soooo, the point is. please stop asking me what im gonna be in future *bow* because, I know what imma doing, I know what's good and what's bad. I know already. i just not sure (what's the difference)

maybe i should put this at 2nd ._.

7. people who dont know how to write well.

eg"aq x cukew 3ngk0 wat cam ni tat aq"

or

@w@k$ $@y@ suk3 sgt dgn @aw@k$

or

d0 u kNoW HoW 2 sp33L C0rReCtLy?

dear Anwar Hadi. i know this might gonna turn u off (if u're reading this) but kingsley is one of my fev guy in this earth and i just wanna show how i am truly LOVE this video and malaysian (all!) should (MUST MUST MUST) watch this video

gambar tiada ada kena mengena dengan personal feeling.harap maklum -_-

psst: sangat yakin bukan aku seorang je yang kongsi perasaan terhadap manusia yang kurang pandai mengeja ni!

8. skip to 9

9. taylor swift and her break up story

she's one of people who inspired me alot (in past). but, dear. breaking someone heart and turn it as a (HIT) song is seriously not good. once ago, her song used to relate to what i feel eg: fifteen, you're not sorry, Innocent. but, now. i dont think song that she are gonna make based on her experience with jake gyllenhaal are gonna make me feel the same way she used to make me feel

10. and the last one. the last one. the thing that irritates me are, MYSELF. because of 1st until 9th reason. i should really learn how to 'idgaf' i should applied it in my daily life. i REALLY should started from now

so, what about u guys?-xx

life and hopes

the moment i start typing this post. it's already 5:49am. i was forcing myself,not to go sleep because the next day. i'm going to go back to normal life. i'm going home. yes, a place where i called home, kelantan. one weeks in KL was seriously the most happiest thing for me. this is place where i was born, my childhood memory all was treasure here (even though i couldnt recalled back my childhood memory. it seems has lost it way)

btw, the reason why I forced myself not to fall asleep is because i have this kind of syndrome which I can't wake up earlier in the morning. usually, i'll wake up about 11am-1pm. somewhere between there. depends on the weather. so, to prevent any un-timing moment. this is it, i had to forced myself to stay awake. besides, along the journey I can sleep for the whole day. and thank to my lovely twitter friends who willing to talk with me. Love yall tightly

so, this is it. i already started missing my brothers, friends and gosh, i feel terrible. there're lots of WANTED friends that i fucking seriously havent meet them for ages:( i miss them, i truly miss them. seriously when we're gonna meet? because I seriously cant get enough now.

as much i am looking forward for 24th of february (it was a comeback for one of my fev bands in this universe,BIGBANG) and yes, it's also my mother birthday and also, I heard it was also day lady gaga latest single 'born this way' was launched. omfg, so many greats thing are scheduled to happen. but, at the same moment. i was freaking scared of my upcoming spm results. seriously, how time flies. felt like just yesterday i was screaming as spm already come to the end. rewinding back, i havent done anything beneficial except making some of new friends. trying my best to improve my grammar through tumblr,twitter,blog and so on. and also, i think my cooking skill also improved now. weeee:D

another, i feel like i was far away from God. i'm not a religious person (like some people assume me to be) now, i always woke up late. i missed my subuh prayer (and i qada' it later on,still it's not good) I dont recite Al-Quran as much as I always do previously. i'm seriously scared. i was aware that world is not going to last forever and our time is short. but still, i'm doing a bad thing.

and now, in a few weeks more to. the result are going to come out. I cant imagine how my result gonna looks like. I just wished I could accept everything that God already set for me. I know anything happen reasons. yes it is. all I need to do, just relax and calm down. enjoyed every single things i can and I should do and i'm gonna put smile on my face no matter what. yes that's my february resolution,xx

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popping in to say hello to you guys and yes, happy february. fast right? it's already february. feel like just yesterday i was cursing why it's already 2011 as i'm fucking not fully prepared for anything eg SPM results which fucking squeeze freaking me out.

but i guess this year, God was being nice to me.Alhamdulillah.so far, everything that i wished come true *cried*

me and baby panda,love her tightly

so, as planned. this holiday, we (which that was equal to me+Mom+lil sis+lil cousin) are going to spend it in KL (hometown precisely) my dad followed us later on as he stuck with his super crazy chairman. business world *roll eyes* and tired with my past experience which my pride lead me to destruction and boringness. so we are going to stay here for one weeks. and so far,my schedule was super tight.

what i mean, everyday was fulled of fun and blast. omg, i think. along 17 years 5months. this is the best moment and best vacation ever i ever had.

so, zillion thanks to my brother*bow* for his overload kindness. 3days,my life are perfect with him. my life is being fucking amazing. something that i have been missing ever since i graduate from my high school. thank you so much for being generous. showing me, what's mean by life. thank you. i LOVE you with all my hearts. my bestman ever. muah muah.

and thanks to my ni'mat for being apart of my life. thank you for always be there for me when i need someone. dear, you're too thin. thinner than me *that freak baby seriously* :) i, my love for you cant be described in letters. hopefully you're having a great day *sigh* love you with all my heart, your name and face. i tattooed it already in my heart. forever.

i have one of the most perfect day in my life.how bout yall's? how life?:) hopefully you guys are having a fantastic moment along the loved one. now,i'm truly believed. every single tests given by God. it happens for reason. i shall cherish all this memories. and i'm gonna make this, as a lesson, for me. to learn and appreciate things that i had-xx