life and hopes

the moment i start typing this post. it's already 5:49am. i was forcing myself,not to go sleep because the next day. i'm going to go back to normal life. i'm going home. yes, a place where i called home, kelantan. one weeks in KL was seriously the most happiest thing for me. this is place where i was born, my childhood memory all was treasure here (even though i couldnt recalled back my childhood memory. it seems has lost it way)

btw, the reason why I forced myself not to fall asleep is because i have this kind of syndrome which I can't wake up earlier in the morning. usually, i'll wake up about 11am-1pm. somewhere between there. depends on the weather. so, to prevent any un-timing moment. this is it, i had to forced myself to stay awake. besides, along the journey I can sleep for the whole day. and thank to my lovely twitter friends who willing to talk with me. Love yall tightly

so, this is it. i already started missing my brothers, friends and gosh, i feel terrible. there're lots of WANTED friends that i fucking seriously havent meet them for ages:( i miss them, i truly miss them. seriously when we're gonna meet? because I seriously cant get enough now.

as much i am looking forward for 24th of february (it was a comeback for one of my fev bands in this universe,BIGBANG) and yes, it's also my mother birthday and also, I heard it was also day lady gaga latest single 'born this way' was launched. omfg, so many greats thing are scheduled to happen. but, at the same moment. i was freaking scared of my upcoming spm results. seriously, how time flies. felt like just yesterday i was screaming as spm already come to the end. rewinding back, i havent done anything beneficial except making some of new friends. trying my best to improve my grammar through tumblr,twitter,blog and so on. and also, i think my cooking skill also improved now. weeee:D

another, i feel like i was far away from God. i'm not a religious person (like some people assume me to be) now, i always woke up late. i missed my subuh prayer (and i qada' it later on,still it's not good) I dont recite Al-Quran as much as I always do previously. i'm seriously scared. i was aware that world is not going to last forever and our time is short. but still, i'm doing a bad thing.

and now, in a few weeks more to. the result are going to come out. I cant imagine how my result gonna looks like. I just wished I could accept everything that God already set for me. I know anything happen reasons. yes it is. all I need to do, just relax and calm down. enjoyed every single things i can and I should do and i'm gonna put smile on my face no matter what. yes that's my february resolution,xx

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