say hi to my wishlist

so, spm result already come out and i freaking glad. from my result, i can apply ANY courses i want BUT since i didnt score well physic i end up, couldnt apply engineering. fuck off. i dont currr. anyway, that's not the point. so, now i am STARTED to make a list what present i want from my daddymommyandsiblings. NO! i don't want money and chocolate please.

the first thing that pop from my mind what i REALLY need is, this

let me be honest, i am damn fucking freak when it comes to technology (except html and codes, thanks to myspace) although, i don't really good playing with this stuff. but, the ONLY reason why i freaking need this in my life is because of *cough* tumblr app and *cough* twitter app. that's all (yup)

but i won't force my dad

me:dad, i dont want money.i need iphone.but i wont force you

dad: ok then i wont buy it

me: (.___.) but it would b better if you could buy it for me *otw-wanna-cry-face*

dad: *poker face*

yup, i dont force my dad to buy it for me

-_-

I WILL!!!!!

next, to the most glorious moment ever. i have been saving this moment. i need this. and someone better buy it for me or else, or else.... -_-

topshop

jaffrey campbell is a MUST for shoes lover. i swear, if i got REAL jaffrey campbell shoes, i dont need iphone anymore (to bad,i'm joking.i still want it) :P

quotes: a girl is as hot as shoes she wear. so never, ever think you don't deserved to wear any shoes you want. and yes, screw expensive heels. there are PLENTY of cheap yet beautiful heels out there waiting for us to wear them

a-must-have-item leather jacket. thank God, during my last trip to KL a few weeks ago. spot this leather jacket, korean made. rm67 (fuck my life now,i must have it) so, since the price was fucking driving me crazy. i warned my bro, one of them MUST get that jacket dead-or-live

i'm such a good little sister. they must be effing proud of me :"D

other

again, during my last trip to KL. i saw this precisely-look-alike beg, at such a crazy price (what i mean by crazy is super cheap). leather bag won me 100%. my mom have this charles and keith leather handbag, and it was super pretty. i always wait for right time to borrow it. but,thinking of it was a special gift from my big bro and i feel bad and worry if something bad might happen if along the time that bag with me. i think, i need to own one leather handbag.

and last, since i'm already out of perfumes. so, this is a need.

i won't mind any perfumes as long it smells nice and not to strong. but,i remember when i still a little kid who know nothing except playing with mud and sand. when i saw chance by chanel. i already fall for it. and, i really wishing one day i could own this. i really love the smell.

:)

btw, i'm not expecting i could get all this since i dont think i deserved all this seeing my humble result. it is just a wish. even if i dont get this from ppl who i expecting them to buy it for me. i will try to get it by myself. credit: all pictures above are from google and tumblr,xx

28032011 genap satu purnama this enchanted story

there're so many things playing inside my head (and heart)

what if, 4years from now. you already forgot about me

what if, i am the only person who's being enchanted by you

what if, one day you come home and introduced 'this is my future wife'

and what if, you will never know i was enchanted to you?

and i believe

i am gonna be the most heartbroken girl at that moment

i like you very much. i wish you everlasting happiness and at the same time, i wish you will never in love for someone else. i wish, no one is waiting for you

i guess this selfishness is becos my greed for you

highlight of the month (march issue) part 2

dengan nama Allah, yang Maha pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang. masih sudi, melimpahkan rahmatNya buat aku, yang 24/7 pembekal dosa besar dan kecil. Alhamdulillah kerana, Dia masih sudi mendengar tangisan yang dahagakan kejayaan ini.

ada ramai manusia yang terdiri dari ibubapa, guruguru, adik beradik, sahabathandai, saudaramara, motivator dan strangers yang perlu aku ucapkan terima kasih

terima kasih

untuk hari yang paling bermakna dalam hidup aku.

i guess, no proper words to describe my happiness right now. everything is beyond my imagination, i will cherish and remember this moment until the end of my life

with all my love and respect, 23.3.2011

highlight of the month (march issue) part 1

i won't blame you,if you got some kinda of feeling wanna-vomit if you are reading the tittle for this post. i got a super reasonable reason why i would name this post with the tittle as u see above. first: BECAUSE I HAVE'T MEET THEM (MY GIRLS) FOR AGES ALREADY. and so,it's not wrong to go gaga kan? 2nd: the reason why this is parte 1 is becos parte 2 is reserved for SDFGHJSDFGHJDFGHDFGHHJ SPM RESULT MOMENT *scream* now,calm your fucking ass down and scream and jump from high building NOW.

alert: ALL the pictures was taken with simple yet amazing (well for me) camera. so,the quality was kinda sucks (in your eyes,not me) still,i'm grateful bcos 10years from now.i still be able to show to my child, that their mom even though was categorized as anti-social person, she still have a few friends which she loves to death and so, never question my royalty to them bcos, i might be kinda of bitch but when it comes to friend that i really love, i DO love them (except when u stab me so hardly,i'm just gonna show my bitch side.cant help.she will always there when this kind of drama happen)

aside from beautiful days, the down side is. i was supposed to meet the beautiful ni'mat for some I-MISS-YOU-MOMENT but,since she got class to attend and i already otw home that moment. we had to cancel it, i feel bad when she told me she have something for me and it turns out that she wants to give me her handmade cake *cried* and *cried* she couldnt hand it to me bcos i am stupid and not a good timer person :"( sorry :'<

4days in KL, 2days in mt.stong (LOL,my mom at first misunderstanding stong and stone)

if it wasnt because of driving class and i need to get my P license ASAP (AND SPM!).i wouldnt go back to kelantan. there're so many wonderful thingy to do in KL right now and so many ppl who i havent got a chances to meet yet

btw, thanks for such a sweet day padelin and betol

and sorry nimot bcos of the whole thing that day. janji ganti balik masa tu tau.

and 23rd of march. those,who were born in 1993 JOM BOYCOTT HARI TU!!

there will be time, when you feel insecure of yourself. wait, have u ever feel in that kind of way? because, unfortunately that's how i'm feeling right now.

frankly, i always mad at those people. who, really i wonder did they ever heard and know grateful words? those people who, got super supportive parents. who support and love u in every single ways you are. cherish you, menatang bagai minyak yang penuh senang cerita k. and then, you got bunch of true and fake friends, who remember you birthday, who always there for you. and then, you are one of those lucky people, who God cherish your life by making you as an intelligent person. it doesn't matter, even you don't study at all. you still can achieve an excellent result. no,i'm not mad at that whole effing fucking thing

the thing that, when you don't get what you want. eg: the so-call-TRUE-LOVE. u started to complain, how empty your life is *facepalm* i know, this is not kinda my business. but seriously bitch, get your mind on the right track! BE FUCKING GRATEFUL AND IT'S NOT EVERYTHING YOU WANT YOU CAN HAVE IT.

seriously someone need to be grateful with what they have now.

the ghost of you lingers

nothing can makes me feel bater than seeing people dressing nicely.so,here is some of my fev looks of the week

i am proudly to say,less DO more

all pictures credit to: tumblr (modellove,studdedteaspoons,jetblackheart,cancelmonday and etc)

and here is my sampai mati fev looks :)

celina fall/winter2011 | Paris

everything happen for reason

after the whole fucking thing that happen today.i decided to let go all of it through writing *sigh* the last time i feel this sad,angry,mad,nigga nigga and asdfghjkldfghj is *thinking* I DONT KNOW!! but for sure this is gonna be the last fucking time i do this! and i swear promise, I WONT DO AND FALL FOR THIS FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE

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it all started, when i read this tweet. saying this 'guys, don't forget to vote for our boys'

and i was like. what the hell is this shit? and i click the link and it bring me to this site where it turn out that, chosun sport (a korea newspaper) is holding a competition musician of the year. and the tight competition between bigbang and HoMin/dbsk and i was like

so, we can vote more than once. every single second (well,not really.after you enter your vote.wait until 10 to 15 seconds so that your vote will be count) and yes, I CANT REMEMBER HOW MANY TIMES I VOTE! so, supposedly. IT WAS SAID AND MENTION THERE, THAT THE LAST DATE FOR VOTING IS TODAY. 7th fucking march 2011. and last night, when i open that site. it was fucking tight competition between HoMin and my precious boys BIG BANG

and everyone (yes, the rest vip's) was like

well not exactly, that was to smooth. maybe this one

yup, i think so. because this is precisely how i'm react when i saw it. so we are competing with cassie. and i started all this thingy, midnight. after i'm done watching merlin (OMFG THEY CUT THAT KISSING PART.SCREW TV3!!) now, let move on

so i vote and vote and vote and vote, while watching back sbs gayo 2009 and i vote,i vote,i vote and then, i look at the computer time, it's already 4:30AM. and those cassie (fanclub name for dbsk) was like oh what the fuck, DONT THEY GOT NOTHING TO DO? IF ALL OF THEM IS WAITING FOR SPM RESULT TO? and the gap between big bang and dbsk vote is soo tiny

and all the vip's was like

everyone was cheering 'VIP'S DONT SLEEP.YOU BETTER VOTE OR I WILL BE ANGRY. VIP'S WHERE THE HELL YOU ARE. OMG I'M SLEEPY ALREADY. I GOT CLASS TO ATTEND TOMORROW/THIS MORNING. BUT WE ALREADY VOTE MORE THAN 50TH TIMES. CAN SOMEONE HACK THIS SITE? and etc' omg,seriously. I EFFING LOVE MY FANDOM :') they are like the best thing in in my entire life :'>

so, i was staying all night just for this whole voting stuff. if only my study spirit is like this *facepalm* and i swear, only big bang can turn me like this -_- so, i look at the clock again, and it's already 5:55AM. i'm already sleepy BUT i still, keep voting. keep voting. and the gap is still won't change. those cassie are nuts -_-

then, 8AM i decided to stop. to take shower, get some rest. eat breakfast. then,i lay comfortably in my bed. and i FALL asleep. when i wake up, it's already 12:45PM! and i was like,omg. whose win! whose win! i take shower first, and go get something to eat. and open my computer. open my twitter. click the link. because, it was suppose to be, the vote close 7th 3, 12PM (korea time)

and when i open it to see who's the winner. the vote is change, the date is change. EVERYTHING IS CHANGE and they are doing REVOTE. yes, fucking REVOTE.

and all the vip's was like (especially me)

*sigh* life is full of drama. you can never expect everything like what you want it to be. deal with it or gtfo. i'm done with all this -_-

it's ironic

when you making fun of love quotes and love song

and you're laughing at some shit theory

like when someone appear in your dream

it's because they miss you

and you laugh

that was just invalid you know that

and you getting sick of watching love story

but of course, korean drama is an exceptional

because you enjoy the sad story line

you wanna cry, you afraid of becoming a heartless person

and most at all

when now you started to believe all that

the love note, love quotes, love story

once upon a time, when you read a statement

how you wish that person will never fall in love with someone else

when you are wishing, no one is waiting for that person

you called that person as a selfish person

and now, you are wishing the same damn thing

like I said, it's ironic

and you wish this is just for temporary.

10things that

annoyed me lately, and i freaking hate it

1. facebook (explained why i rarely online my facebook) and i dont have any solid reasons why. boring already perhaps?

2.stupid tag from people that i dont know (i know i'm not alone too,xoxo) :P

3.tumblr

because NOWADAYS people keep talking like 'oh my God,u know what.facebook is full of drama. I love tumblr more than facebook because u know what.here we got easily with each other, facebook is full of mirror pictures and peace sign pose and blah blah' here's what i think, u know.it's fucking why now i hates tumblr. because people like them. and u know what's another tumblr probs now? 'THE-ONE-WHO-SHALL-NOT-BE-NAMED-AND-A-WANNABE-TUMBLR-FAMOUS'

and excuse me with 'here we got easily with each other', by stealing someone artwork and change into 'oh-this-is-mine' ?? a long time ago, tumblr used to be like that.but now,no more.

and worst at all, the police grammar.

i'm just gonna shut this off. because,i dont think i deserved to explain this as my english are freaking bad. i'm just wanna say. before you judging someone, u like seriously need to go to the mirror and look at yourself and said 'why im so perfect,i should died'

but i still love tumblr. tumblr was my second-love-in-sight.cuttttttttttt

4.kpop

AHA! i just realized how scary some die-hard-fans can be (include me) one of thing i regret most in this world besides my stupid ex's and my old crush are knowing kpop.

1st:they drive you crazy.

2nd; i cant denied how addictive they are.

3rd; u-are-slowly-gonna-turn-haters. because, kpop industry. it's normal u see those idol group.some of them DO plastic surgery, they lips-sync, they wear shorpants, they do buttdance, they do kawaii pose, they act cute and so on. it's kinda turned off. BUT the fans, they're dieing for them.

i used to be part of those haters. but slowly,i realized. what's the point hating them. like they are gonna know. so here it's. if u hate them, just keep for yourself. stop judging them. stop listening to them. u can just said 'oh,their music is not my taste' not by making failed forum or website or whateva.

here are some comment i still remember until now from some haters

"i wish she are gonna get rape by that person"

"she's fugly bitch"

"why dont he go and killed himself"

"people like them should died"

I hate people who only listen to one type of music and criticise everyone else for listening to something else

-flawlessbitch.tumblr.com

maybe i should put this first not facebook ._.

5. secret garden drama

i couldnt accept that kind of story line. enough said ._.

but oh my God, since when hyun bin looks so handsome?

skip to nom 6

6.ageing

I know. I know. this is a super sensitive issues. but, what i'm trying to say is. wait,I should just change the tittle. ok forget about it, what i am trying to say here is, being 18, being an ex spm candidate that waiting for her result that soon gonna come out is seriously squeezing me to extreme level.

so, yesterday my mom keep telling me to fill the UPU form and decide what me gonna do in future because me results are gonna come out and me gonna died becos me are not fully miss Independence like in neyo song and me not ready to AGEING (NO,that's not what my mom said to me)

and soooooooooooooooo, as you know. i'm sort of useless human being as i enjoyed latte than sky juice, i love shopping than making money, i love sleeping than clean my bedroom everyday, i love eating than cooking.muahaha -__- ok,this is not funny. this's freaking scary! and soooo, the point is. please stop asking me what im gonna be in future *bow* because, I know what imma doing, I know what's good and what's bad. I know already. i just not sure (what's the difference)

maybe i should put this at 2nd ._.

7. people who dont know how to write well.

eg"aq x cukew 3ngk0 wat cam ni tat aq"

or

@w@k$ $@y@ suk3 sgt dgn @aw@k$

or

d0 u kNoW HoW 2 sp33L C0rReCtLy?

dear Anwar Hadi. i know this might gonna turn u off (if u're reading this) but kingsley is one of my fev guy in this earth and i just wanna show how i am truly LOVE this video and malaysian (all!) should (MUST MUST MUST) watch this video

gambar tiada ada kena mengena dengan personal feeling.harap maklum -_-

psst: sangat yakin bukan aku seorang je yang kongsi perasaan terhadap manusia yang kurang pandai mengeja ni!

8. skip to 9

9. taylor swift and her break up story

she's one of people who inspired me alot (in past). but, dear. breaking someone heart and turn it as a (HIT) song is seriously not good. once ago, her song used to relate to what i feel eg: fifteen, you're not sorry, Innocent. but, now. i dont think song that she are gonna make based on her experience with jake gyllenhaal are gonna make me feel the same way she used to make me feel

10. and the last one. the last one. the thing that irritates me are, MYSELF. because of 1st until 9th reason. i should really learn how to 'idgaf' i should applied it in my daily life. i REALLY should started from now

so, what about u guys?-xx

life and hopes

the moment i start typing this post. it's already 5:49am. i was forcing myself,not to go sleep because the next day. i'm going to go back to normal life. i'm going home. yes, a place where i called home, kelantan. one weeks in KL was seriously the most happiest thing for me. this is place where i was born, my childhood memory all was treasure here (even though i couldnt recalled back my childhood memory. it seems has lost it way)

btw, the reason why I forced myself not to fall asleep is because i have this kind of syndrome which I can't wake up earlier in the morning. usually, i'll wake up about 11am-1pm. somewhere between there. depends on the weather. so, to prevent any un-timing moment. this is it, i had to forced myself to stay awake. besides, along the journey I can sleep for the whole day. and thank to my lovely twitter friends who willing to talk with me. Love yall tightly

so, this is it. i already started missing my brothers, friends and gosh, i feel terrible. there're lots of WANTED friends that i fucking seriously havent meet them for ages:( i miss them, i truly miss them. seriously when we're gonna meet? because I seriously cant get enough now.

as much i am looking forward for 24th of february (it was a comeback for one of my fev bands in this universe,BIGBANG) and yes, it's also my mother birthday and also, I heard it was also day lady gaga latest single 'born this way' was launched. omfg, so many greats thing are scheduled to happen. but, at the same moment. i was freaking scared of my upcoming spm results. seriously, how time flies. felt like just yesterday i was screaming as spm already come to the end. rewinding back, i havent done anything beneficial except making some of new friends. trying my best to improve my grammar through tumblr,twitter,blog and so on. and also, i think my cooking skill also improved now. weeee:D

another, i feel like i was far away from God. i'm not a religious person (like some people assume me to be) now, i always woke up late. i missed my subuh prayer (and i qada' it later on,still it's not good) I dont recite Al-Quran as much as I always do previously. i'm seriously scared. i was aware that world is not going to last forever and our time is short. but still, i'm doing a bad thing.

and now, in a few weeks more to. the result are going to come out. I cant imagine how my result gonna looks like. I just wished I could accept everything that God already set for me. I know anything happen reasons. yes it is. all I need to do, just relax and calm down. enjoyed every single things i can and I should do and i'm gonna put smile on my face no matter what. yes that's my february resolution,xx

pictures credit: tumblr

popping in to say hello to you guys and yes, happy february. fast right? it's already february. feel like just yesterday i was cursing why it's already 2011 as i'm fucking not fully prepared for anything eg SPM results which fucking squeeze freaking me out.

but i guess this year, God was being nice to me.Alhamdulillah.so far, everything that i wished come true *cried*

me and baby panda,love her tightly

so, as planned. this holiday, we (which that was equal to me+Mom+lil sis+lil cousin) are going to spend it in KL (hometown precisely) my dad followed us later on as he stuck with his super crazy chairman. business world *roll eyes* and tired with my past experience which my pride lead me to destruction and boringness. so we are going to stay here for one weeks. and so far,my schedule was super tight.

what i mean, everyday was fulled of fun and blast. omg, i think. along 17 years 5months. this is the best moment and best vacation ever i ever had.

so, zillion thanks to my brother*bow* for his overload kindness. 3days,my life are perfect with him. my life is being fucking amazing. something that i have been missing ever since i graduate from my high school. thank you so much for being generous. showing me, what's mean by life. thank you. i LOVE you with all my hearts. my bestman ever. muah muah.

and thanks to my ni'mat for being apart of my life. thank you for always be there for me when i need someone. dear, you're too thin. thinner than me *that freak baby seriously* :) i, my love for you cant be described in letters. hopefully you're having a great day *sigh* love you with all my heart, your name and face. i tattooed it already in my heart. forever.

i have one of the most perfect day in my life.how bout yall's? how life?:) hopefully you guys are having a fantastic moment along the loved one. now,i'm truly believed. every single tests given by God. it happens for reason. i shall cherish all this memories. and i'm gonna make this, as a lesson, for me. to learn and appreciate things that i had-xx

#9

baru2 ni, hidup macam terisi dengan perkara yang tak agak berfaedah. ok jom mulakan dari mana datangnya ideologi kegiatan yang memenuhi masa. beberapa hari yang lalu, saya telah menerima seruan untuk meng-create acc twitter yang baru. YES TWITTER!

yg lama,gatal pergi deactivate,agahlah kononnya tak perlukan dah semua twitter acc ni TAK! saya perlukannya! sebab salah seorang artis korea yang saya cinta gila baby la. nama dia gong minzy. dia cute, dia dari 2ne1. dan kepada yang tak tahu, saya ni bolehlah diletakkan dalam puak kipas-susah-mati (die hard fans) 2NE1! kalau 2ne1 datang malaysia. memang aku menangis berbaldi-baldi sebab nak pergi jumpa dorang (amen,mintak2 dapat)

so, lepas tu. eh eh, twitter ni kan kan kan. femes sangat dalam kalangan peminat korea. so jangan terkejut beruk la sometimes ada sesetengah artis korea ni jadi trending. so,aku pun dah termasuk dalam puak2 tu. jadi,bila buat. dapat kenal kawan2 dari seluruh dunia.awwww. kan berfaedah dah jadinya. so,ada la beberapa kawan yang SAYANAKJUMPAAWAKBILASAYAPERGIOVERSEASNANTI! kita cuka cangat2 buat kawan baru (walaupun grammar bersepah, tapi dorang boleh terima.sob sob. thanks guys) OH TIDAK, jangan expect jodoh dtg (tp kalau dah takdir,ok ok cut!)

jadi semenjak dari tu. twitter plus benda paling awesome dalam dunia, T***** (TAK NAK CAKAP, SEBAB NANTI KORANG PON JOIN -_-") menemani kehidupan seharian aku. memang, COMPLETE lah hidup aku sekarang. orang lain mengadu hidup dorang kosong. aku gelak macam ni

ok, macam kejam gila je gelak macam tu (-.-") tp hakitkatnya. huhu. kita cuka. kita cuka. lepas tu, aku belajar banyak gila baby la. jumpa kenalan cyber baru. dapat gaduh2 dengan bitch yang entah muncul dari mana tak tahu. haish (-.-")

dan 29hb ni. teka what i am gonna do? YES! betul. BALIK KL! (*__*) walaupun agak seram, sebab seriously internet connection kat sana slow mengalahkan siput. tapi, kita cuka sebab kita boleh jumpe kawan kite. kalau tak dapat jumpa, memang aku pengal T_T, jadi sampai sini sahaja (eleh,macam ada orang baca) kisah hidup gua. adios muah muah.